Asking Forgiveness versus asking permission

This is probably deeper than I want to go, because in just contemplating it, I feel myself being dragged pretty deep into the abyss of these considerations.

1.  First thing I thought is that because I float trial balloons, I have to ask for forgiveness more than than not.

Some people never have to ask for forgiveness, because they never take chances.

Some people have to ask for forgiveness all the time because they don't learn.

Some people are confused about knowing the difference of what is best when.

I am confused by my confusion

2.  My learning cycle is pretty "fat" in active experimentation, so reflective is a nice place to visit but who would want to live there?

3.  CONTROL....yikes, that is the one that really got me here.  If I'm concerned with being controlled, then I'll forge ahead at times and then respond defensively when I get whacked up the side of my head by failure.  However, it probably is a good thing...however I'm not sure which one is the good thing, yet...

4.  There is probably high utility in learning by failing, however the casulties and fallout by those who don't think this way can be pretty high, as I've experienced.

Hmmm, what is the revelation?

Well, I guess it is this...Maslow once said that one of the three things that you experienced when you were in a fully self-actualized state...was the independence or freedom from the good will of others.

Yet, with what is called an open-limbic system in primal leadership, I would imagine that "the good will of others has a lot to do with forms of well-being I'm not ready to leave behind...or can't afford to leave behind (utility speaking here).